I am

having difficulty standing up straight and walking.. i am in so much pain i wish i can just lie in bed and not work on anything.. i am entertaining thoughts of being wheelchair bound.. i am letting my mind wander to the extremes... i am in pain...

from a game of tennis to aches this bad.... i think i dun want to play tennis anymore... then wat am i to do with the racket? haha.. i think rock climbing is less pain inducing for me... it realli is bad.. so bad tat i dun even feel like walking to the toilet... or even to shift to the sofa just a step away... the pain is making me not feel like talking.. i'm fine when sitting down.. the pain sets in when i try to stand up.. maybe i should just stand and not sit down at all. sob sob....

i am going to start on work. website, design for some brochures and all. i will get started, dun need to stand up and i'll do it.. maybe i should just wheel myself everywhere on my ikea chair... going to my room seems like a daunting task though..uphills and downhills to conquer... haiz.

i think i am going to drink another coffee... or maybe i'll just lie down and rest a while...

i'm so glad it's the hols.. but one week is over alreadi.. sadness...

Din = Dean

so Din,or rather Dean, went on to sign on and on 26 December 2007, he became a civil servant, serving the nation and as he proclaimed loudly on 28 May 2008, he will defend singapore with his life!

well, signing on is no big deal, but going to the SISPEC course and getting the Honour Graduate at the age of 26 when all the others still look pubescent is a big deal. standing out as the best amongst over 200 (i think) trainees is definitely an experience! like the chinese saying goes, the ginger is still best when aged. being the parade commander was just the icing on the cake.. Excellent stuff, Dean.. hee hee.. (although u will still be better known as Din to me, but then again, it's just a matter of change in vowels.)

all the best in ur army career! Happy u had the guts to go for what u want and looks like the future is burning brightly ahead for you! :)

it's the holidays and here i am slacking away.. yippee... must enjoy while i still can ya? the future looks bleak and filled with tasks that look daunting and oh so irritating at times...

la la la.. it's a beautiful day.. very hot outside but freezing cold inside the library.. it's amazing what aircon can do! :) brrrr...

i am going places..

off to somewhere for a trip soon...dunno where yet... somewhere in malaysia for a short break.. hee.. it's the hols.. yippeeee.... :) and i have been slacking...

after the short trip,i think i will be off to......


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holding onto the letter i got after taking part in the Scan and Win contest organised by 8days at their roadshow on 24 and 25 may.. i was thinking how nice it would be if i got the 7 days 6 nights trips for two to Europe and just held on to that wish.. the man before me won a weekend stay at Amara Sentosa Resort. when they scanned my card and the picture showed the trip to europe, everyone was stunned. i was stunned. hands were shaking.. heart was pumping so fast. couldn't smile properly for the camera.. haha.. and i thought i would never get to be the one that wins the grand prize at contests!! well.. now all i have is the letter to go get the prize.. think i will still be doubtful till i actually board the plane and fly there.. till then.. more updates when i collect the prize! woo hoo..

thank you to whoever it is up there who is smiling down on me.. thank you, thank you... happiness.... :)

and just received a call from Martin saying that Din did really well and will pass out as the top cadet this Wednesday.. seems like he signed on for the right cause! we had our doubts but well, u go Din! Great job! will be there to witness ur proud moment! :)

just viewed this video on youtube.. touching...



the world is more beautiful because of them..

it's the day of my exam..

and i am still typing a blog entry although i realli should be studying? yeah... in 12 hours my misery should be over for now.. i have so many things i need to do after 10.30 tonight, prepare mother's day gifts, scan some pics, do up schedule for work next week, complete lesson plan, do mid year reviews etc.. lots and lots to do.. and i amalready thinking of them although i realli should be studying..

well, i am panicking. it's going to be tough remembering quotes and all with one whole novel (Fathers and Sons by Ivan Turgenev) and many many poems by William Blake (about 30 poems) as well as women poets like Anna Laetitia Barbauld - The rights of Women, Joanne Baillie -A Mother to her waking Infant, Felicia Hemans - An Indian Woman's Death Song and The Grave of a Poetess, Mary Matilda Betham - The Power of Women. these are just four of the fourteen poets i can choose from and 5 of the about 30 poems there are to study. can't even exactly the author's name and titles much less the quotes..i am so dead... haha...

cannot wait to go take photos too, although my photos still suck.. oh, and also to set up website... need to come up with the layout and all then get Ross to help.. after that can get my bro to maintain? he's very free now. playing games on his laptop till it crashed beyond help. haha.he has no choice but to use the desktop now.. hogging the table in the living room. hmmm..

reading the newspapers and see lots of dead ppl..especially children.. the ppl in china and myanmar must be in pain, physical and emotional pain.. it's tough seeing one dead person, not to mention the many that the rescuers see for the past few days...hmm..

ok.. back to my notes and books... 9 more hours to go.. wonder if i will come out early because i have things to write and wrote all that i can or come out early because i have nothing to write? hmm.. hope it is the former and not latter. scary...

3 exams at the end of this year in november. wonder if i can take so many days of exam leave? hmmm.. should be ah... i hope... hope i will be done with studying by june 2009. :) cannot wait.. wan to do kickboxing after that. hee hee. i'm thinking way to far... i need to get past tonight with at least a C. but if it'sonly a C, my GPA will drop.. hmm.. tsk tsk...

it's been a while...

still reeling from shock of losing a fren. remembered the times we climbed ophir together and ran around tekong, causing everyone to be quite shocked when we emerged first runners up for the orienteering competition, and how she brought much laughter and also torture in a way... though we were not exactly close but we did not lose contact totally. i miss her...

i want to change job. i also want to do something for the ppl displaced by the natural disaster in Myammar. 20000 ppl have died already... the people there are suffering a double blow... hmmm.. wat can be done?

time to study... exam in a week's time. i am not doing much about it. i dunno. damn slack. damn damn slack.. and this is going to be one of the most difficult exam..

need to do some work for school first. will study tomorrow after work. i promise i will study. haiz. life is tough...