i wish for time to sleep and do all that i need to do...

hehe.. tat is kind of like my own birthday wish. haha.. but not in these exact words. cannot say exactly or it might not come true? haha...

getting a bit too tired about all these.. haiz.. and the body is not as able to handle all the abuse i am inflicting on myself. hmm.. i have aged..

metabolism rate has slowed down... can feel the fats accumulating.. haha.. maybe ppl will think that i am trying to be funny by saying this but really, i do eat my meals. i may not eat too much as my digestive system is not exactly in the best of shape, but i do eat and i cannot go without food except when fasting that is.

anyway, i am just rambling on... trying to think positive thoughts. happy to know that out clothes rack could be up soon.. hehe.. no more hanging at the windows... the walls will be filled with mostly my clothes. haha. should really be determined to clear out clothes i have not worn for the longest time. haha... or maybe just change a new wardrobe altogether?? haha..

time is flying by so quickly and i am feeling like i am lagging way behind... need to geta hold of myself and get moving. i need something to walk me up. i need to get chicken essence. arghhhhh....

i want to run away. stay at home and be a recluse sounds good too... life is too short to be always feeling tired... haiz.