there's a clamp on my head

and it's being tighten as i am doing my work and trying to handle all that i need to do. my ppt slides are due today.. it is not ready. i am tired. like extremely. it is worrying.

i do not want my body to give up on me just yet. i am still young. i have many i have yet to do..

i know i probably should just go get my work done.. i'll do so. soon.

i am blessed with love from family and hubs.. i am thankful that i am able to do my work still. sometimes it is hard to handle.. and i feel like the head is being clamped. i do not like it..

i hope i can emerge from this all unscathed and not burnt out. i need a break. like seriously. so many things to oversee. no life at all.

i had a good time on 1 May by the way.. the romantic date did not turn out to be exactly very romantic, but the surprises were good.. i thoroughly enjoyed the night... it was nice... i know i said i want to go home, but it was really a nice sweet date... :P think i need chicken essence even for a date. haha. extreme tiredness felt all the time.............

argghhghhghghghhhggghghghh...

but it's all going to be ok, right?? trying to be a little more optimistic here.. alright... time to get back to work... :0

i wish for time to sleep and do all that i need to do...

hehe.. tat is kind of like my own birthday wish. haha.. but not in these exact words. cannot say exactly or it might not come true? haha...

getting a bit too tired about all these.. haiz.. and the body is not as able to handle all the abuse i am inflicting on myself. hmm.. i have aged..

metabolism rate has slowed down... can feel the fats accumulating.. haha.. maybe ppl will think that i am trying to be funny by saying this but really, i do eat my meals. i may not eat too much as my digestive system is not exactly in the best of shape, but i do eat and i cannot go without food except when fasting that is.

anyway, i am just rambling on... trying to think positive thoughts. happy to know that out clothes rack could be up soon.. hehe.. no more hanging at the windows... the walls will be filled with mostly my clothes. haha. should really be determined to clear out clothes i have not worn for the longest time. haha... or maybe just change a new wardrobe altogether?? haha..

time is flying by so quickly and i am feeling like i am lagging way behind... need to geta hold of myself and get moving. i need something to walk me up. i need to get chicken essence. arghhhhh....

i want to run away. stay at home and be a recluse sounds good too... life is too short to be always feeling tired... haiz.

i am 28 years old

woo hoo.. i am 28 years old. my little ever so cute and adorable nephew sang me a birthday song last nite and cut his cake toy and shared it with me. he saw my mum and aunt giving me red packets and he decided that he wanted to give me one too! he went to ask my mum for $2 and gave me a red packets!! haha... very funny... he really felt bad that the red packet was empty! he frowned and ran to the room to ask my mum.. i'm very touched... hehe.. then he passed me the present my sis was to give me. he passed it to me and told me it was a watch. haha... oh and he opened the present on my behalf too.. :p

but he is so cute lah.. and clever. too many examples. its amazing! wonder what my sister feeds him! hehe.. she has taught him well..

i got a new cute little camera from moe and hubby... a kate spade bag from myself... a nice baby g watch from my sis and love from many...

thanks... although i jumped out of bed at 6.30 today, i reached sch on time.. the art room check is cleared... just one more day tomorrow...

later going for dinner. i dunno where to go yet! and a movie although sound good, may take up too much time... hmmm... oh well.. i have to get work done and then get ready for the nite! maybe i should drink my coffee now! :)

what can i do?

to lessen dear's pain? its very worrying and heart aching to see yang waking up in pain and not being able to concentrate on his studies cos of the pain... and now tat we are almost going to move in, it is very worrying... i just hope yang will give his leg time to get well and when we do move, we'll do so at a comfortable pace... :)

i shall go to sleep.. will wake up together with yang later. at about 4. do some work while yang studies at his place... muacks.

love u dear...

cant wait for all the lights to be up! :)