admiration

like wat my facebook status says, "Meijie Jerine deeply admires the elderly lady featured on Tuesday Report. I am amazed by her strength and girth in facing life challenges. I'm ashamed of myself..."

i am indeed ashamed of how micro my view has been. true, i have been to do something to help others before, but i think it is not enough..

that elderly lady is tough. so is my paternal grandma we affectionately call Ah Ma, and my mum.

that elderly lady sells her stuff at sungei road. she has six children she raised on her own when her husband died of cancer when she was 31. she slogged very hard, worked many jobs and although illiterate, she brought them up well. now, none of them give her any money. she cooks from a rice cokker to save on gas and the best part is, she volunteers at a hospice twice a week taking care of the terminally ill. she is 79 years old.

my grandma too, brought up five children on her own after my grandfather fell from the roof while my grandma was still pregnant with my youngest uncle. i cannot imagine how big a blow that is but my grandma is strong. life dealt her one blow after another. till today, she has no idea my father is gone. hmm. come to think of it, i think i wrote of this before. still, i am filled with deepest admiration for her. i wish she could be happier now...

hmm.. i got to go.. got to rest some today. tomorrow will be back to fighting battles at work. i should take my mc fully, shouldn't i? :p