dipping down way low....

it has been been a smooth start since the start of the year. in fact it has been bad. i am at one of my lowest point at work. i am not motivated to do anything and am so tired all the time. having 4 hours of cca, 2 hours of supp lessons, 3 hours of meeting each week is bad. in fact, it is terrible. apart from marking, i have not been able to do anything else. all i want to do is to go home early, slack, sleep and drag myself out of bed. gone are those days when i could stay up to do work, rush out things asap with no delay, be on time for submission.

i am slack. i admit it. i have gotten so tired of things that i just want to drop everything and just go. i lose my cool easily and all day i just show one irritated face. does not help that i hurt my right thumb before cny, fell sick for a while and today i scalded my left hand in school. the pain was excruciating. it was just water from the water cooler. i was distracted for just one sec and i was scalded. the water was really really hot... it's still red now and tender to touch.

i need to pick myself up. i started the year positive and recharged. i am now lost and behind time.i need to buck up and buck up quick. it will start now.just downed a bottle of chic essence. i intend to get lots of sour stuff. i need to go get my butt moving,. do some sports. feel fat and lethagic. this sucks. i better stop dwelling in my own misery. lots of deadline.

bloody................................. h***....................................................